justxstopx

:(

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 07:38:14 GMT

omg wow,
seriously.
HE I S A FUCKING PEICE OF SHIT!
I'm in total shock, I don't even know what to do or say.
The guy I was talking serious with.
We were gonna start dating when I moved.
SATURDAY!
Called me and told me hes not ready to be in a relationship and told me he dlept with the girl he was talking to before me.

:(
ahhhh.

Writer's Block: Words to Live By

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 22:14:24 GMT

What is your personal motto or favorite quotation?

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"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."

oh dear ana,

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 22:13:42 GMT

please forgive me.

490 cals.

make me shitttt.

fuck my life.

:(

fucking stupid.

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 04:12:54 GMT

So my dad never cares or acts like it and now he just like freaked out on me and said im acting strange and hes getting sick of my ED?! I didnt think I made it that abvious..he NEVER said anything before. and how long have I been like this. for fucking ever. It's kinda funny but annoying as shit. Oh well I'm out of this shitty ass place in 1 week and 5 days.

btw its almost day 2 of my 14 day fast.
(:

i feel really dumb.

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 20:52:58 GMT

Haha

Jesus.

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 18:03:22 GMT

I'm moving in 13 dayys !

Today is day 1 of my 14 day fast !
CW- 164
GW1- 148

I just woke up at 1:00pm.
I'm bored.
I'm excited for this fast.

I can't wait for the plane ride..I'm like a little kid that like the most exciting part of moving. I can't wait to start cosmotology school either. (:

Good day so far.
Cig time.

xoxo

I..

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 09:34:48 GMT

feel like shit.
I always say the wrong things.
:(

like i wont be open or anything..
and then ill say something and it sounds so terrible and bitchy.
and i think i made him mad:(

ugh.
im up at 4:30
taking the GED in 3 hours on no sleep and a diet coke.
and maybe a NON fat yogurt for energy?
i think so.
its not a solid so ill let it slip for my liquid fast.

its 1:27 am

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 06:30:46 GMT

and i have to take my GED 1st thing in the morning at like 7am. lol.

short

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 01:20:40 GMT

TODAY FUCKING SUCKS.

I A FAT PEICE OF SHIT!
:(

<3

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 01:35:56 GMT

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

not so good today.

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 01:17:03 GMT

From Today on I'm going to stay strong!! I am not giving in to food. NO NO NO!

I want to be thin again!

4-5 day fast starting tomorrow (tuesday) and after that I'm going to eat a small ammount of veggies. No more weight gain for me, Idc.
I feel sickkkkkk.

And I'm starting up another food diary.
It worked, I just got lazy.
and I need to excercize again!

But on the bright side I had an okay day..except for the fact I ate 700 cals.:( EWH never again!
But I finally went to school got to see my friends.

TWO MORE DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL! WWWHHOOO(:

i heard you can lose ten pounds in 3 days if you do this EXACT diet??

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 00:40:26 GMT

YOU MUST DRINK 5 X 8OZ GLASSES OF WATER EACH DAY.
THE DIET MUST BE FOLLOWED EXACTLY TO LOSE 10LBS IN 3 DAYS.

DAY 1
BREAKFAST
Black coffee/tea, ½ grapefruit, 1 slice toast, 2 spn of peanut butter or small tin baked beans.

LUNCH
Black coffee/tea, 4 oz tuna, 1 slice toast.

DINNER
2 Slices any cold meat, 1 cup string beans, 4oz beetroot, 1 small apple, 4oz vanilla ice cream.

DAY 2
BREAKFAST
Black coffee/tea, 1 egg, 1 slice toast, ½ banana.

LUNCH
Black coffee/tea, 4oz cottage cheese, 5 saltina crackers.

DINNER
2 Slices any cold meat, 4oz broccoli, 2oz carrots, ½ banana, 4oz vanilla ice cream.

DAY 3
BREAKFAST
Black coffee/tea, 5 saltina crackers, 1 slice cheddar cheese, 1 small apple.

LUNCH
Black coffee/tea, 1 hard boiled egg, 1 slice toast.

DINNER
4oz tuna, 4oz beetroot, 4oz cauliflower, ½ melon, 4oz vanilla ice cream.

abc diet

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 22:43:33 GMT

I'm starting day one today.

Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: Fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: Fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: Fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: Fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: Fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: Fast

ewh

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 22:19:04 GMT

I have been just super depressed all day. Just sitting in my room keeping myself occupied so i don't eat. I'm on day 2 of my fast. and jesus, I didn't eat and I GAINED 2 FREAKING POUNDS..WTF?! It's pretty f'n depressing.

I'm hungry but I can't eat I feel like a failure and discusting. Ugh today sucks. I'm in a terrible mood.
and I just need to let it out.
AHHHH

Sometimes I just want to give up everything and everyone and just be alone. I have a guy but sometimes it's just so overwhelming I just wanna escape I don't feel like I am good enough for him I feel like he will change his mind about me. Just thinking about it depresses me. I just hope when we meet in person his feeling don't change..idunno wtf I would do..):

okay I'll shut up now.

xoxo

I

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 04:09:15 GMT

really need a fasting buddy. I need someone to talk to. I feel discusting. I want someone to relate with.

soo..

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:23:30 GMT

Someone should message me cause I have no idea how to work this site. I was also curious is you fast for a week straight no binging or eating anything how much weight on average would you lose in that week?

xoxo

day one here.

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:04:54 GMT

So I have'nt ate anything today. The past 2 days I binged. So ashamed. I just had a 10 calorie diet V8 juice today and thats all I plan on consuming today. I've been doing good occuping myself looking at thinspo. My current weight as of today is 163. I started at 185. My STGW is 145/150 my LTGW is 130 or less. I'm 5'7". Does anyone want a fasting or ana buddy? Cause I would like one.(: